Aim to the stars

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I've been thinking...
I've always wanted to move away from Finland. I lived in Belgium for 7 months, loved it and hated it at the same time. Brussels just isn't the city for me, but London could be.Every time I set my feet on the ground of England I feel like home. I can't explaine it, and for once don't even feel a need to. It could be the home of my heart.

So now, since I've realized I actually don't have anything that would tie me to Finland, I could make the move. Every time I try to think of a reason to the question; "Why not?" I can't. There's no room for me to be scared if I need my life to change, and if I wan't to experience new things.

What am I waiting for? Really, WHAT? So now I've decided to take actions towards making it possible. I might change my mind while looking into things, but I feel a desperate need to start doing something. It's going to take a while before I feel comfortable enough to really go through it because I have lot's of things that need to be planned carefully...for example things conserning my dogs.

Sure I'll miss a lot of things from Finland. My mom, brother and his family. But first and foremost my friends. Maybe I'll convince someone to move with me! Anyway I think I need to do this. I'm certain it's going to be really hard at first, but I truly miss the feeling when you start your life from the scratch...even going to a store to buy food is an experience at first. There will be lonely times, and lot's of tears. At the same time those are the things that will drive me forward, drive me towards new people, new life.

Everything can go horribly wrong, but because I know I'll always have a place to return to, people supporting me back home I feel comfortable doing it. The funny thing is that I don't even know where to start! What channel will I use...school, work, my sister(who lives in England) or what!? Where will I live, how will I find myself an apartment? Scary...but oh so exciting! It might take me two years to get there, but now I at least have a plan.

"24 and blooming like the fields of Maine
25 and yearning for a ticket out

dreams burn but in ashes are gold"

-Kings of Convenience, 24-25

Award

I'm having trouble sleeping, so I'll do this now. I got this "You are an awesome girl"-award from S.
Thank you, the day I saw this was a shitty one, so you made my day then!

This award means that I need to tell 10 interesting, or pointless things about myself. Let's see if I can come up with any. Here we go...

1. I just loooove to do Donal Duck jumps( the ones when you jump in the air and clap your feet together while in the air) I get this powerfull urge to do it few times a day...and usually I jump no matter where I am.

2. I talk to myself aloud while cooking.

3. I hate the way I walk.

4. I could spend a day at an airport easily. I'd just sit there and watch all the people coming and going. To me an airport is no-mans-land; place to be when you wan't to be a nobody. That's why I usually go there as early as possible before my flights departure time. And if I have the time I spend some time at the arrivals gate, watching the happy people meeting eachother at the gate.

5. I'm jealous to people who know what they wan't. Because I usually dont'...I'm just guessing all the time.

6. I use deadlines in my life. I had around ten of those untill I turned 24, so time is up for some of them now. I've made up around 5 new ones(so far)...they need to be done 'till I'm 30.

7. I'm really badly addicted to Battery energy drink. I get a Battery headackhe if I don't drink at least one of those everyday.

8. SHINY THINGS! Shine shine shine, glitter, gold,silver...if I didn't fear the fact that I'd get bored soon, I'd cover my home with shiny things.

9. From any hobbies that I can think of, my favourite one would be dancing...I suck at learning coreographies so I can't do it. I dance bymyself then!

10. I've promised myself a liposuction when I'm 30. Hopefully I won't need it. :D

I'll pass this award on to Kiiki. She's going through a rough time, so I wan't to cheer her up. No need to feel sad 'cause you are an awesome girl! We'll be seeing in October and have a blast...right?

Happy Birthday - To Me!

24...24 for is a good number. I've always had 24 as my lucky number, so maybe now after turning 24years old, life will bring new and good things for me! If this year of beeing 24 is anywhere near as good, as my b-day party I'll have the time of my life!

I got to stand under silver confetti falling from the sky, after I got a call to come down to the park. I got to have all my gorgeous friends with me, eating, drinking and laughing together. Perfection!

One of them stayed up partying with me untill 11am...it was mad but so much fun, you rule girl! Thank you to all of you who make my life feel like a party all the time!


And the gifts...WUHUU! After I got a shower of silver glitter falling on me, I got a ticket to Michael Jacksons Thriller Live consert in October!!! I lost words...they hit the nail with this one!!So so excited to go there, and I'll have the best company to go with. YEY!


Then I got gorgeous flowers, Salla sure knows which ones to buy every time.


Mango giftcard! I've wanted to go and find a new winter jacket, so now I know where to start looking first!


And look at these hahha What else could you expect from Marja. I love that monkey peeler, and now I'll never have a mushed banana in my bag again!


And...well...of course, Suffeli Puffi!! With a princess crown on top..great!


This b-day will keep me going for the whole year.THANK YOU!

Stop

It's time to take a brake and think a little. In my previous post, I talked about the importance of keeping myself busy. That wasn't a really good plan after all..my body gave me a big cold slap on the face this week.

I've had a pretty active and hectic summer, I've exercised more than usually (there's nothing else to do here) I've been busy doing something almost every weekend, and during the weeks I've stayed up really late ('till 3'o clock most nights) for no good reason and have consumed at least one energy drink everyday, many days two. Adding the stress with this plumming renovation, money problems, new job and few relationship problems, what do you get?
Well I got some heart problems...scary. Yesterday I went and had my heart and lungs checked.

For three days I had had pain in my chest, to the point that I couldn't sleep. The night before I went to the doctors I was sure that I'm going to die...I was sure I have cancer or at least some kind of horrible heart disease. After all the tests had been done, and they pretty much didn't find anything, I felt relieved and pissed off at the same time. There has to be something wrong with me if I feel these things!! But there isn't (thank god)..it's all in my head.

So people, before you get yourselves into this situation think hard about your life and the problems you have..are they really worth stressing about? Don't compare your life to someone else's, don't keep enemies just forget the people that make your life miserable. Don't panic over material things...believe that good thing come to good people. Take care of your self...don't exercise too much, only to make you feel better. Call your friends if you feel sad. Take one thing at a time as they come, you can't do everything at the same time so why bother stress about them all at the same time. Believe that life will carry you if you let it.

The doctor ordered me to rest for the rest of the week. I do feel better all ready, and am looking forward to my friends birthday party this weekend. I'm concentrating on that for now, trying not to think about anything else. Just trying to go with the flow and not worry about things that I can't do anything about. You do that too.

Don't walk fly!

It has been an amazing summer. When I think back I haven't really even noticed my living conditions. Sure I've been whining about this horrible Vuosaari flat a lot, but in the end it hasn't bothered me that much. There has been so much things to look forward to, many great thing going on. Even going back to work after my summer holiday was exciting, because of my new position there.

Now it's sad to see that the summer is almost over. I get this nervous autumn feeling again. I'm afraid of the cold winter. I feel like lying in a park on my back all night long, breathing in the last summer breaths. I worry that I'll go into a small coma and not wake up until it's summer again. That's why I try to plan my life ahead a bit. If I have plans and exciting thing coming up, maybe I won't notice the winter that much either!

In October it's LONDON BABY! I get to go to my favourite city with one of my favourite friends...!! The flights were so cheap that I'll have more budget to do all my must do things there, like Urban outfitters. <3


Also I'll be seeing my sister and her family in Maidenhead. We'll get to go for a pub lunch which I always love. I'm hoping we'll find a small pub with a warm fireplace, with cosy sofas and flower printed wall papers. Somewhere on the Thames.

This will be a good trip I'm sure. I've always wanted to travel with L so this should be really good.

The summer isn't completely over though...few parties still coming up. L's birthday with cocktail dress theme(love it) and another party on the same day that I really hope I manage to go to! Then it will be time to move back home <3 <3 <3 The vigorous decorating can start! There are fabrics, pillows, trays, dog bowls and beds going through my head so fast that I can't keep up!

In September it's my birthday. I'll be 24 years old. Don't know what I think about that yet. I'm just happy to have all my friends at my home having fun together.

So here were most of my thoughts and plans for the near future. I felt like posting 'cause when I woke up I felt really nervous happy and excited! Life is what you make of it for sure. And I've made this summer fabulous! The icing on the cake was Lily Allen, last Sunday at the Flow festival. Perfection.

Mad for quotes

I've found myself reading these quotes almost every night for about a week now. In some way I find comfort in them. Like today I've been really annoyed all day for various reasons, but after a good run with Jazz and reading these I feel so much better!

Here's few great ones:

A man who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life.
Charles Darwin

Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact.
William James

I have a simple philosophy: Fill what's empty. Empty what's full. Scratch where it itches.
Alice Roosevelt Longworth

People living deeply have no fear of death.
Anais Nin


When we remember we are all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained.
Mark Twain

A true friend never gets in your way unless you happen to be going down.
Arnold H. Glasow

It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

The friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you.
Elbert Hubbard

And the greatest one of them all:

If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with.
- Michael Jackson

So true....

Good times

Last weekend was really good. The weather was perfect, the company was perfect and I got to do all the things I love. Saturday I went out to party a little with a friend, and on Sunday we went to do some serious shopping with another friend.
I found the perfect Flow-festival dress and the perfect shoes...among other things. Even the fact that I was a bit hangoverish didn't slow me down, I just really enjoyed the day out in the city for a change!

I have lot's of other plans too, good things coming up. I'm really happy that I have things to be excited about!Life has been going really nicely lately.


We went for lunch to the F8 restaurant/coffeehouse. F8 is a brand new floor at Stockman. Sleek and nice, not so cosy but they had lot's of foods to choose from! A bit on the expensive side, like Stockman usually is, but the food was okay.


We shared a chicken-cesar sandwich, and a crab-prawn sandwich. So good...


Today I went to check out my home. Like always I go in to a small schock when I go there. There's dust everywhere, holes in the walls and so on. I don't know why I always expect to see my home as it usually is...I do KNOW that there's a renovation going on. Still every time I feel like crying a bit. Silly!




There was one surprise...they had ripped one wall down to the point that I could see the bricks. That means that I have to paint the hall, which was not in my plans really. Well at least that gives me the opportunity to change the color, so something positive in that too.


And look, I'm getting a heated bathroom floor!! Perfection <3



This is how much dust there is...I really need to hire a cleaning lady to do the cleaning for me. I'll never manage on my own.



Bye home for now! 18 days to go...