Aim to the stars

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I've been thinking...
I've always wanted to move away from Finland. I lived in Belgium for 7 months, loved it and hated it at the same time. Brussels just isn't the city for me, but London could be.Every time I set my feet on the ground of England I feel like home. I can't explaine it, and for once don't even feel a need to. It could be the home of my heart.

So now, since I've realized I actually don't have anything that would tie me to Finland, I could make the move. Every time I try to think of a reason to the question; "Why not?" I can't. There's no room for me to be scared if I need my life to change, and if I wan't to experience new things.

What am I waiting for? Really, WHAT? So now I've decided to take actions towards making it possible. I might change my mind while looking into things, but I feel a desperate need to start doing something. It's going to take a while before I feel comfortable enough to really go through it because I have lot's of things that need to be planned carefully...for example things conserning my dogs.

Sure I'll miss a lot of things from Finland. My mom, brother and his family. But first and foremost my friends. Maybe I'll convince someone to move with me! Anyway I think I need to do this. I'm certain it's going to be really hard at first, but I truly miss the feeling when you start your life from the scratch...even going to a store to buy food is an experience at first. There will be lonely times, and lot's of tears. At the same time those are the things that will drive me forward, drive me towards new people, new life.

Everything can go horribly wrong, but because I know I'll always have a place to return to, people supporting me back home I feel comfortable doing it. The funny thing is that I don't even know where to start! What channel will I use...school, work, my sister(who lives in England) or what!? Where will I live, how will I find myself an apartment? Scary...but oh so exciting! It might take me two years to get there, but now I at least have a plan.

"24 and blooming like the fields of Maine
25 and yearning for a ticket out

dreams burn but in ashes are gold"

-Kings of Convenience, 24-25

Award

I'm having trouble sleeping, so I'll do this now. I got this "You are an awesome girl"-award from S.
Thank you, the day I saw this was a shitty one, so you made my day then!

This award means that I need to tell 10 interesting, or pointless things about myself. Let's see if I can come up with any. Here we go...

1. I just loooove to do Donal Duck jumps( the ones when you jump in the air and clap your feet together while in the air) I get this powerfull urge to do it few times a day...and usually I jump no matter where I am.

2. I talk to myself aloud while cooking.

3. I hate the way I walk.

4. I could spend a day at an airport easily. I'd just sit there and watch all the people coming and going. To me an airport is no-mans-land; place to be when you wan't to be a nobody. That's why I usually go there as early as possible before my flights departure time. And if I have the time I spend some time at the arrivals gate, watching the happy people meeting eachother at the gate.

5. I'm jealous to people who know what they wan't. Because I usually dont'...I'm just guessing all the time.

6. I use deadlines in my life. I had around ten of those untill I turned 24, so time is up for some of them now. I've made up around 5 new ones(so far)...they need to be done 'till I'm 30.

7. I'm really badly addicted to Battery energy drink. I get a Battery headackhe if I don't drink at least one of those everyday.

8. SHINY THINGS! Shine shine shine, glitter, gold,silver...if I didn't fear the fact that I'd get bored soon, I'd cover my home with shiny things.

9. From any hobbies that I can think of, my favourite one would be dancing...I suck at learning coreographies so I can't do it. I dance bymyself then!

10. I've promised myself a liposuction when I'm 30. Hopefully I won't need it. :D

I'll pass this award on to Kiiki. She's going through a rough time, so I wan't to cheer her up. No need to feel sad 'cause you are an awesome girl! We'll be seeing in October and have a blast...right?

Happy Birthday - To Me!

24...24 for is a good number. I've always had 24 as my lucky number, so maybe now after turning 24years old, life will bring new and good things for me! If this year of beeing 24 is anywhere near as good, as my b-day party I'll have the time of my life!

I got to stand under silver confetti falling from the sky, after I got a call to come down to the park. I got to have all my gorgeous friends with me, eating, drinking and laughing together. Perfection!

One of them stayed up partying with me untill 11am...it was mad but so much fun, you rule girl! Thank you to all of you who make my life feel like a party all the time!


And the gifts...WUHUU! After I got a shower of silver glitter falling on me, I got a ticket to Michael Jacksons Thriller Live consert in October!!! I lost words...they hit the nail with this one!!So so excited to go there, and I'll have the best company to go with. YEY!


Then I got gorgeous flowers, Salla sure knows which ones to buy every time.


Mango giftcard! I've wanted to go and find a new winter jacket, so now I know where to start looking first!


And look at these hahha What else could you expect from Marja. I love that monkey peeler, and now I'll never have a mushed banana in my bag again!


And...well...of course, Suffeli Puffi!! With a princess crown on top..great!


This b-day will keep me going for the whole year.THANK YOU!